Tears Of a Wounded Heart !!! (continued)

Oh how BEAUTIFUL HEAVEN must be and how I YEARN to be with You and Alan Donne.   But You MUST HAVE something MORE for me to do here yet...   SEND Your ministering Angels to me to minister to me, Your child.   I've heard You've given two people visions of Alan Donne to encourage me.   I just want to SEE how REAL HEAVEN is for those who go there...   I miss the walks Alan Donne and I used to have where we would get into discussions about Spiritual things...

My Child, I am HERE and I WILL SEE you THROUGH this time...  I LOVE you very much and I LONG for the TIME I CAN BRING ALL MY CHILDREN HOME to LIVE with ME FOREVER in HEAVEN!!!  Yes HEAVEN is a BEAUTIFUL place where those who are READY WILL COME to SPEND ETERNITY WITH ME!!!    PLACE your TRUST in ME and KEEP your EYES on ME and I WILL HELP you  EACH STEP of the WAY...   There is a PLAN I have for you that ONLY you CAN FULFILL for ME!!!   TRUST ME and I WILL REVEAL it soon...  You are MINE for I bought you and I CREATED
you in MY IMAGE and to have FELLOWSHIP with ME!!!   LEAN on ME, MY CHILD and I WILL SEE you THROUGH each TRIAL and each TEMPTATION...  Do not LOOK BACK but LOOK to the FUTURE and you WILL SEE the MIRACLES I have WAITING for you...                                   



                                                                                                                                   3/30/92     




                                                                                                 Gertrude Ann  

Tears Of a Wounded Heart !!! (continued)

Put Your arms around me and hold me tight right now.  May I lay in Your arms til this night and the hurt is gone...   WALK through this trial and this trying time with me.    I sold the 25 caliber pistol so I wouldn't
have it here...  BE GONE temptations and LEAVE me ALONE tonight and always...   I BELONG to
Jesus Christ and Him ALONE will I SERVE...  I TAKE A STAND and DECLARE that Jesus Christ is my Lord,Savior and soon coming King.  I WILL NOT TURN BACK for I WILL GO FORWARD from this
night on...   be my FRIEND for I have a WOUNDED HEART...    Help me sleep tonight and wake up refreshed in the morning...   TOUCH my mind and CLEAR it from all worry and confusion...   I do need You more than ever before.   In Your written word it says You are a husband to the widow...  BE MINE and LET me TELL You all that is on my mind.   There is so much that has happened and I'm so confused right now. 
The pain in my heart and body is just too much to handle by myself.   I NEED HELP...MAY I GET the HELP I NEED...   I ADMIT that I NEED HELP and I ASK You to LEAD me to that HELP...
Thank You that You hear me and You don't turn Your back on me when I need You...   Thank You for giving  me this talent for writing out my feelings...   May I MAKE myself TRANSPARENT so You can HELP me....

Tears Of A Wounded Heart !!!

                                                                                                                                 3/30/1992
                                                                                                                                   11:15pm


   Oh God!   I  hurt so much tonight.  I just heard for about the third time the song  " Jesus, a Friend of a wounded heart."  Sometimes I feel so all alone. I think of Alan Donne and it feels so empty in my heart.  I feel like a battle is going on tonight...  Please help me to overcome this hopeless feeling.  Help me to live again and enjoy things again.  I just sob as if my heart is tearing apart.  I try to pack to move and everywhere I look or whatever I do I see reminders of Alan Donne and I have to tell myself  it is real---  He is gone and he won't come back again---  I must go on and live again.  But it is so hard to do.  I think of his medication up in the cupboard and I have to fight the thought to take the morphine so I won't hurt anymore.  I must get it out of here.  Help me Lord Jesus to make it through the night...  these thoughts TERRIFY me.  I must not do it as it will only cause more pain and won't settle anything.  think of the happy times and look to the future.  For there will a TOMORROW again...  I need You Holy Spirit to comfort me and calm my weary heart.  I am so very tired of feeling tired and empty...  Lead me to the ROCK that is higher than I...  Fill me to overflowing with joy and gladness again...  Fill my cup so there will be peace and contentment again...  I do Love You very much and always want to be Dependent on You.  Show me what to do and where to go... Take this heavy depressing feeling away from me.  I do need You Jesus tonight and always...  May I lay all these burdens at your feet dear Lord.  Help me in this grieving time and don't let me do anything to destroy our relationship...  I trust You Holy Spirit, I just don't trust myself right now...  I'm afraid I may do something desperate...  DRAW me closer to You.

There's Healing For All The Wounded Hearts!!!

Dedicated to my husband, Alan Donne, for his love and gentleness of spirit...


In appreciation of what God has done in our lives I hereby praise Him
for His mighty grace and wonderful Love to us...


                                   In His Service!!!
                                      Gertrude Ann